Begin Again. . . Again

 I believe that imperfections create perfection. That the things we hate most about ourselves are the things that truly stand us apart. We live in a world where time is so precious and yet we waste it, surrounding ourselves in deprivation because it can be difficult to embrace who we really are. I’ve done it, you have done it and the lady down the street has done it. Deprived ourselves from social occasions, from buying that dress we love, avoiding photos because we only acknowledge the things we do not agree with, but why? Why do we only choose to relate to negativity and completely disregard the positive? I was once paid a ‘compliment’ where I was told that I had ‘a lovely face for a big girl’. For a moment I accepted face value and believed that this person was wonderful for saying it. Then it hit me. Lovely face for a big girl. What the frick? Why isn’t the rest of me lovely? I began to question everything about myself, to the point where I questioned my self-worth. Who on earth has the right to allow someone to question their self-worth? In 2014 I began to voice my view about being a plus size role model on social media. Hoping that it would help me begin to build up my confidence about my body. It lasted two blog posts. I didn’t receive any negativity, only words of kindness. But it didn’t feel real. I forced myself in an attempt to believe the words. That maybe if I put myself out there, in time I would actually believe it.  It focused highly on the way the media portrays women and the way they look. Opposed to the whole person. Beauty lives everywhere. But beauty is not everything.

Loving ourselves for the amazing creatures we are is paramount. Accepting our so called ‘flaws’ is a good start, but personally I think defining who we are as people is so much more. Embracing our kindness, passions, creativity and culture is a better start. Self-expression is the key kids and this blog will be my self-expression. So come along for the ride and let’s try and make it past only publishing two posts this time. Wicked. 

Love ya, Chuck x x